I'm off to copy mountains,
rivers, clouds,
I take out my pen, and note
down
the soaring bird
or a spider in her silkworks;
nothing else occurs to me:
I am air,
the open air where the wheat
swirls.
I am pulled into flight by
the unpredictable
movement of a leaf, or by the
round
eye of a fish, immovable in
the lake,
or by the statues which fly
among the clouds,
the arithmetic of rain.
I notice no more than the transparency
of
the springtime, I sing the
song of the wind,
while history rolls by on its
wagon
with its clutter of epitaphs
and medals.
It passes, and all I feel is
the river
as I stand alone in this spring
air.
Brother, sister, don't you
know
they are waiting for you?
I know, I know it well, but
here beside the water,
with the crackle and perfection
of cicadas
at the place where they wait
for me I too am waiting,
hoping for a glimpse, so that
I might know at last
what it is to be me.
And when I do arrive at that
place where I am waiting for myself
I'll send myself off to sleep
laughing, and die of ecstacy.